Have you ever been through a phase where you just felt like doing a CLEAN-UP! Whether it was spring cleaning your home, cleaning your car, cleaning the fridge? How did you feel after you did it? Pretty good right? Sometimes our own personal lives needs the exact same. Well….. at least mine does and right now that is exactly what I am doing. I’ve been going through this phase where I just decided to release and let go of everything negative, anything weighing me down, anything toxic, anything I didn’t want to cultivate in my air or space. I have decided to no longer accept or tolerate anything I didn’t feel was genuine.
A lot of times I found myself just sitting back and not really speaking out on what I truly felt or believed, as times are changing so am I. I am no longer afraid to stand up for myself or call out B.S when I see it. What I realized is that people can be so DRAINING until it almost gets sickening and the longer you allow it the more toxic your air becomes. So you see just how we spring clean our homes, our lives sometimes has to go through it. I can tell you though; it’s not easy before I made any life changing decision I literally had to pray about it. It is what I tend to do most times. The more I pray and ask God for guidance the more I become comfortable in whatever decision it is I am about to make. Life is a journey; things change, people change, times change… point blank the world is ever changing.
I am really writing and saying all of this to say… it is so easy to allow the negative words of others tug at your heart or bring you down, but my dad always told me to never really pay attention to what people say instead listen to the way they say it and it tells you everything you need to know. I am not perfect when it comes to handling negativity, sometimes I give in and I feed into it and I react but I am still learning to know when to just walk away from things or people that no longer serves a purpose in my life. To be completely honest for the first time in a very long time I feel a huge weight lifted off of me.
So as the year is coming to an end and we are getting ready to embark a new year I am just happy to be OUT WITH THE OLD. Good bye, Good Riddance, Adios, Au Revoir, See Ya!!!!!! My air, my world and my space feels a lot less toxic, a lot less negative, a lot less draining and just pure and clean. Something I’ve been craving for a long time. Like someone told me sometimes it is necessary and to never feel bad for it. On that note I’ll leave with this… GOD IS WITHIN ME, ALWAYS HAS BEEN ALWAYS WILL BE. I WILL NOT FAIL!